which hurt more???

when u feel depress and sad,
u crying loud
or
u cannot crying at all,but u just feel that it eat u inside..

I'm just feel like I dun have any feeling inside me..weird huh???am I become stronger or else..

ps:I'm happy sbb tetiba blh teringat surah2 yg dihafal ms sekolah.alhamdulillah,Allah kurniakn nikmat yg lain